I’ll be honest. The past few weeks have been rough. So much has happened on a personal level and in my world in general. It’s not really necessary to spell it all out, but I found myself sliding back into my old ways. And not liking it one bit.
Some of it was that I was recovering from having teeth extracted. That takes forever! I physically did not feel like doing anything beyond the absolute necessities, and even then, sometimes those didn’t get done. I began spending more time on the computer which I enjoyed for a while. But it just became a habit and did not “fulfill” me like it had been.
Yesterday, things finally came to a head. I had a last minute project that would not turn out right no matter what I did to it. I left my wallet at home when I went to pick up some things at the neighborhood drug store. The clerk was making light of it which made me feel like she was poking fun at me. I went to a graduation open house and re-connected with some old friends, but still came home feeling empty. I took a nap, exhausted by my emotions. More time on the computer. Nothing satisfied.
I awoke this morning with the realization that I had been looking for my significance and satisfaction in surface things, temporal things. I was struck anew that Christ is the one that makes me significant. When I do what He has called me to do, I find true fulfillment. In Christ, I have redemption. In Christ, I have hope. In Christ, I have been blessed with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places. I am made alive in Christ. I could list so many more things that I have “in Christ,” but the point is, that the world really offers us nothing. Family, friends, circumstances will waver and fail.
I need to find my significance, my peace, my contentment in Christ alone.